Monday, November 17, 2014

Gasoline (2013)

As a writer, I am a paradox.
I want nothing more than to find love,
but I write of the pain it brings.
But then again, isn’t that the human condition?
To seek out pleasure through
pain?



As a lover, I am a paradox.
I want nothing more than to share her bed,
but I cannot fall asleep next to her heat.
But then again, isn’t that the human condition?
To seek out warmth, even when it 
destroys?


As a friend, I am a paradox.
I want nothing more than to meet more people,
but I am plagued by anxiety around strangers.
But then again, isn’t that the human condition?
To seek out the unknown, but only
observe?



.As a paradox, I am exceedingly human
,I want nothing more than to stand out and rebel
.but I only end up blending in
.Because that is the human condition
We all strive to be different 
but our desires are matches, and the world still
.burns
,And we keep throwing paradoxes in buckets
thinking it’s water, while really it’s
.gasoline

Another Poem About Her (2013)

Howls that fake 
words without
words.

                           Lands that waste
                           space, waste 
                           sight.

                                                       Winds that tear
                                                       homes; dry 
                                                       tears.
.These things are where i find my home
,Not in reality, for i do not go there
but in my mind. Your absence 
does not make my heart 
grow fonder. it just 
.makes it hurt
...Please
                                                                    .come home

                                                                                                    Creaks that chill
                                                                                                    blood; stop
                                                                                                    hearts.

                                                        Men that grow
                                                        tall yet
                                                        cower.

                     Life that slows
                     then stops
                     sharp.

Don’t
.make it hurt
I promise, i’ve grown
fonder for being alone; very
comfortable. It makes me distinctly
.uncomfortable, knowing that I’m still fine
I don’t know how I’ll feel when i see you. It really 
                                                                      .scares me